Overwhelmed

I always put too much on my plate and try to do everything all at once. One of my classes this semester is completely and totally overwhelming. My instructor goes a mile a minute and expects a lot. :( Boo. And I'm trying to be social w/ gracie's playgroup, so that keeps me busy. I guess that is a choice, but it's been great having friends to hangout with and girls nights out etc. Also, trying to keep up with the gym is proving difficult as Gracie doesn't like to be left in the daycare and screams and screams until they have to come get me from my workout. So I have to try to go around Mark's schedule - which sort of defeats part of the purpose of going (being able to go and have something fun to do during the day!). And last but not least, I've been trying to eat more vegetarian/vegan. It's a slow transition as it is a lot of information to take in. Reading "Skinny Bitch" was just the start. The USDA and FDA scare me when I learn about the ridiculous, asinine, grievous deeds these companies allow to come to pass as they look the other way and put people in danger.

I went grocery shopping yesterday and I literally almost threw up when I passed the ground beef, ground turkey and ground chicken section of the meat department. Ground turkey in particular used to be a staple in my kitchen.

Like I said, it is overwhelming to rethink and retrain your whole way of thinking. I have to learn new recipes and combinations. Change my grocery shopping habits and all the staple ingredients I keep in my pantry. Vegan obviously means you can't eat anything that is derived from animal products (so no gelatin, whey, caesin, etc...) That is why it is a slow transition. I believe my mind and body will reap the benefits and it will all be a worthwhile journey. This is just one of the things that is part of my journey of happiness. eating healthy makes me happy. I don't think it's so much that I disagree with the idea of eating meat at this point, its more that I don't feel its necessary or even safe. Even free-range meat products and organic meat products still have to be slaughtered. which I know is part of the food chain, but I know our ancestors didn't eat meat the way we do now. They butchered animals to help get through the winter, and men went off to hunt as occasion allowed while the women toiled in the garden (blah blah blah), but again, they killed game (if they were lucky) and ate it fresh w/ out hormones, anti-biotics or harmful chemicals and detestable ways of killing.

I found this somewhere online...sorry i can't give proper credit.

Anyway, got a little off track there. I'm just feeling a little overwhelmed tonight. I'm tired and I have a long list of things to do. I guess I better get going so I can see my pillow sooner than later.